Need to Say

Destanie is GAY



edited to note:
Im just jokin!

Getting ready to move yet again in this month. Heavy packing to come YAY!

HOT

OK so Its only 60 some degrees today but it seems like 85 to me. Thats my rant for the day.
I am back to watching Elijah three days a week on Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays now because Jim, his dad, is deployed for the next year +. Its nice for Eva to have him around to play with and for me also (practice for my own second one day I suppose?) Plus the extra income has me joined to 24HourFitness BURNING off those extra pounds that never left when I had Eva...O ya TWO years ago hahaha.
In all other news Lupe got a back-childsupport payout recently and spoiled us all silly and it was a huge surprise. Im a little Apprehensive about it because it might seem a little fast to spend money so quickly that you need desperately, but shes got her mind set an were forever grateful for what this will do for Eva.
I've started up a new friendship with someone I went to Highschool with but never talked to. Her name is Chelsea and shes so much different than I previously thought (judged) so thats nice. I miss SHeena as well and cant wait to meet up with her and kick back or have drinks at the New bar in Gastonia ha.
Got some laundry to do toodooloo!

Potty Girl

Thank Heavens Eva is Potty Trained AGAIN!
After Doing amazingly flawless in January to just recess to accidents via being sick and moving in February we took March off. As of Mid April she is fully potty trained by day and going most nights dry!!! Thanks in large part to her beloved friends M and M. Which came advised by Grandma Jan who got the advice to the (crazy) mom on Jon and Kate Plus Eight who Potty trained her SIX kids at once via M&M's!!

So Sorry

Ok so it has been like 6 months since I last wrote. Ooops. Let me sum some stuff up here...
*Eva will be two in 2 days. I have had her totally potty trained through all of january and some of Feb. She got sick and it backtracked her. She poops on the potty always, which is good. But she pees in her panties and training pants most of the day and only tells me SOMETIMES when she has to pee or when i force her to go occasionally through the day.
*We moved in mid-feb. two days later the place flooded. We moved again. Now we are getting situated and I dont much care for this place. O well.
*Ricks mom is not doing well. Is on dialysis now to live.
*I love Twilight. Nuff said.
*Sheena and I havent been talking much with holidays/moving/me feeling blah this crap weather/her having new man/ricks mom being dreadfully sick... Hopefully that changes soon.
*Destanie and I are on good terms I think. I feel bad for her shes going through hell right now.
*Rick was laid off two months ago.
THATS ALL FOR NOW FOLKS.

MY MOM AND SISTER

MY MOM AND SISTER ARE LIVING WITH ME, BUT NOW ARE MOVING TO ALOHA TO LIVE TOGETHER BUT NEAR BY. AWESOME.

MY MOM MADE IT

MY MOM GOT HERE

Wired

I fucked my diet up. Ah well time to start over. Again. -Bleh- Invited mi padre over today for some yummeroo pizza and watching of some television. Eva did not nap a single minute today so by this evening she was telling me No! Mine! and biting and slapping. Terrible twos? Wahhh.. You mean terrible One-and-a-Half's. :)
I'm watching Mary Poppins right now in bed. I'm trying to tell myself all these cartoon movies I keep watching is for Eva, but she is usually asleep and wouldn't pay attention anyhow. So I watch them. Sue Me.
Pizza wont seem to settle so maybe tonight I will be watching. More than One? Okay! Mi madre called me today and she left at 5Am and drove straight 12 hours. She barely made it to the Utah/Wyoming border. She has another 2/3 of the trip left. She stopped there and is going to call it a night. That far should have taken her 6 hours according to Map Quest. However with the weight her speed is limited and its taking her double time. Now, she must be on the road another 12 hours according to Map quest, however it could be double again and be another 24 hours? AHHHH! She needs to just get here already. Looking like she wont be here until sometime early Monday. She is most definitely going to need to rest again tomorrow night so I'm sure it will be Monday afternoon! Our second bedroom is all cleaned out and ready for her.
Last but not least, we have got ants again! I went to get sugar out of the cabinet for tea yesterday and there were gillions of them! We raided, ant trapped and cleaned the whole kitchen thoroughly but we will see if it ceases. My back is aching from sitting up to type this so Good Night Y'all!

Obama Vs. McCain

I like Obama. I Loved Hilary but eh? Shes out. I dont have MUCH an opinion on McCain, but Sarah o Sarah Palin- DISASTER. WRECK. Please dont end up VP!
I dislike her very much Sam-I-Am. I dont want her or green eggs n Ham. LOL

No seriously, I think it would be a big mistake. McCains speech wasnt bad, but it was only good because he had a tear jerker story. Nothing of which proves to me his ability to be a good president with lots of change in store.

He didn't even really clarify his or her views on much. Nothing in particular that would be helpful to us here middle class (w0)men. Wait am I middle or lower class? Ha who'm I kiddin? This here proves my udumucashon and lower class ness.

ANyhoo. Just thought I would add that I am for the democrats this year. And always. YeeHaw

Cant Sleep

Hey Yo Ho's! Heehee. Evas snoozin, ricks Smoking (blegh) and I cannot sleep. This week is going by super slowly. We've been watching the 40 Year Old Virgin and it is pretty funny I guess. More funny than I remember anyway.
My Momma should be here in less than a week... Woo Hoo. Her room is very close to being finished. Im getting a little anxious waiting to here about my possible career taking off/moving. For now Im content with being a full time stay at home mother of Eva and watching lil Eli also. He's lots better than he was a month or even two ago. Now that he's popped a couple teeth through. He still kind of whines a bit much. Anyway, Our new arrangement in our room is still totally rocking. My diet/exercise routine is also going extremely well. I just don't know if I can keep it up cost wise. We shall see. We took Eva to the park this evening when Enrrique got off work and her face was SOO excited to go with Daddy this time! I wished so much I hadn't broken my digicamera. Ah I wish I could've captured it.
I have a pretty busy day tomorrow. Sheena (nuh-nuh, as Eva puts it) is bringing me some new kinda wine. Maybe we'll go shopping. Our differing schedules has been putting us on the D.L. lately. I have some more finishing touches to do on the room/house for mi madre's arrival.
Okeee Nighty Night Ya'll!

Once a month?

Okay, So I know its been a month since I last posted. I have a very active daughter, so sue me! Eva is less than a month away from her Year-and-a-Half mark. She acts like shes closer to two-years-and-a-half. Shes already in her Terrible-Two's I'm convinced. Even as I type shes pulling at me and whining. Not ever can I seem to get a second to myself without her guilt tripping whines and hollers. Ahhhhhh. O well, its what I signed up for, even if it was in the Very FINE PRINT. :) On to more earth shattering news...
My digital camera broke at Rick's Uncle Johnny's wedding a couple weeks ago. I am now unable to snap any life altering moments. Not that I don't have thousands too many to work through as it is. Ill get a new camera soon enough.
My madre is moving in with us for a short while starting the first week of September, well I guess about a week from this Monday/Tuesday. I'm super super excited to have her here, even if she is out working, she still gets to see Eva a LOT more than being 1300 miles away. I've been working hard rearranging stuff all over this house so it feels just right and NOT-TOO-CRAMPED when she gets here. We'll see. I'm most impressed with the way my own room has turned out. The room least affected ha ha. With Rick's mom's nightstands moved in here, and a couple other extra shelving things, its come together quite well. Not to mention right now I am staring into a new-to-us 19 inch flat/wide screen LCD monitor for this computer. We had one on our list of "hope-to-buys" but with my uncle Dan being very generous, as usual, we get this and its much better than our other monitor. Anyway I guess my room finally feels like a room I can actually hang out in now, and less of a room that just held all 3 of our shit. It does, but in a better way, more at home way. Less Chaotic.
I made a FAB stew/soup two different times this week. One was super spicy for my kind of peeps. One was not spicy at all for people like my "Mexican" pussy-ass boyfriend HA HA. Both were delicious. Only the less spicy I made too much it turned out to need the most Gigantor of Pots we have stashed in this house. I put it back on the stove today as my dad was coming over and I was going to offer him some. But apparently not thinking I asked Rick to turn it on high to heat it quicker, and o well it burned a little. And now the whole thing tastes kinda burned. Still edible it just lost its pizazz. :)
Well I have a lot more stuff to tend to round here. I'm TRYING to remember to blog on here more often. Not only for y'all but because I love to. Therapeutic like a journal. But less private. :)

Some Updates

Haven't written in some time now. Eva's got a mouthful of teeth. Went to Lake Merwin and are going back up this Fri-Sun. Might start taking over at Aunt Shiela's work when she switches to bigger/newer place. Looking forward to it despite some peoples thoughts that it might not work out, I think and know I would like to have at it. Went out with the girls (from high school) again a couple weeks ago and had some beers and fun in the sun. Was a good time. Then Ricky's Birthday was the 19Th and had the good ole familia over. Surprisingly great time we had. A little too fun cause I started spinning from all the beer! Still watching Elijah three times a week only all August it will be 12+ hours each day instead of 10. Don't know how much longer I can handle it. :) Hes such a whiny baby, and shows no signs of wanting to do anything for himself! Totally opposite of Eva. And what I am not used to. Family drama of mine never seems to end. I find it funny but on some days I just don't want to hear it. Thats all for now folks! Until next time, be safe!

Old Friends

As previously stated everything has been coming back to me the last week or so. Yesterday Erin FINALLY emailed me the pics from when we got together a few months back at McMenamins.

From Left: Erin, Sheena, Me, Lisa, Rachel

I have to say we mostly look cute. I loved hanging out with them together and I miss the times we used to have. Two of them are far away at college, Erin and Lisa. Rachel goes to school full time, works, and hangs with a totally different crowd so I only see her once every few months as well. Sheena obviously I see every couple days or so.

Eli is back today and sleeping right now and Eva is too so I need to take this time to get stuff done!

Twightlight Zone

So how weird is it that just as all this old shit coming back to life is happening, AND after what I posted earlier, Candi just dropped by. Even though it was mostly from when I called her an asked her to pretty please bring our Hose back from Amanda's (where they took it without letting us know thats where it was headed), she stayed. And talked. To me about all of the shit that went down. I told her Destanie and I were talking again and she asked why we weren't talking in the first place. And that she knew what it was like to an extent for me in a lot of circumstances I have had to be in this past couple years. I explained everything to her that I should have a year ago. I told her how I truly feel about nobody seeing Eva etc. I told her everything and it was a nice talk. I feel a million times better bout a lot of stuff. Personal stuff. Stuff the internet does not need to know about lol. It SEEMS more often than not, that they stay away because they are afraid one of the kids will mention a certain person we do not need to discuss. Or just simply because they don't feel welcome. I told her, that I do not NOT like them and to stop feeling that way. Because most important is us all being together, and just like any family, people will be pissed off from time to time but it doesn't mean we want nothing to do with them again! A lot of things were misunderstood and its nice to clarify a lot, on my part anyway. Im thankful she felt the same about a lot, and that she made a point to tell me she knows how hard her mom can be to deal with. Can I hear an AMEN! lol Ok buhbYe

Time Warp

July must be the month where everything on your mind or everything bothering you comes back all at once and suddenly you have to deal with it.
I'm not having very great conversations with my mother because for the last month and a half I THOUGHT she has been seriously coming to move back. I thought this was different then the million other half hearted mentions of coming back to live in Oregon for a year now. Apparently from what my Aunt Shiela and Jamie an Gramma have been saying, my moms heart is REALLY not into coming and she just is putting it off and/or putting off telling me. My mom also emailed me saying she might not be here as soon as was expected bla bla bla. If at all...
I'm fine with "my mom is going to do what she wants in the long run" and all that. What I am not fine with is the beating around the bush. The back an forth. The hope then let down. I just wish she would make up her own mind, and stick to it. Live in Oregon or don't. Her decision but she has to actually make it. I guess i just don't understand why she would even mention she is coming unless she were sure. Why bother letting me down!?
Destanie and I have emailed each other a few times and seem to be on the same page about where we are at. Friends? Probably. Enemies? No. Best Friends, not really anymore. Could we be again, don't know, anything is possible. Would I like to see where things got on their own? It would be nice. Have I forgotten everything good and bad? Definitely not. My biggest issue as I did explain to her is TRUST. I'm not saint. Not by a long one. But, and this isn't necessarily all on her, there was FAR FAR too much shit talking, misunderstanding, and just plain attacking of opinions by the lot of Ricky's family and I am afraid honestly that one wrong word or action will start it all over again. There are things everyone doesn't like or agree with about EVERYONE, but I think there are more tactful ways to deal with it than high school gossip and threats and downright bullying.
As nice as it would be to have fun around those I used to have fun with, I am giving this a chance for Eva and Rick too. Eva doesn't get a lot of interaction with not only kids her age but with ANY FAMILY. Candi and Shelly would rather have their kids around Amanda's kids everyday than stop by and see Eva, even maybe once a month. Which doesn't happen even that routinly. My own mom, Ricks own mom, neither of our sisters, seem to really care about making an effort to be in Eva's life and its wearing on my heart HEAVILY. Rick says well we don't make an effort to see Mirella and Gio and Anahi and Jose etc... So why can we blame them..? I don't know. I just think it is different. They drive to each other's houses and out to Amanda's and they all hang out and thats fine, but its not like I can pack up Eva in the car that Rick has at work, and I'm definitely not meeting them over at Amanda's house so what exactly do I have the ability to do? Shelly lives in Clackamas. She comes all the way out to Cornelius ALL THE TIME and never stops by. WE ARE NEVER IN CLACKAMAS. Same with Lupe. She is in Cornelius ALL THE TIME. or nearby in Hillsboro. Her shit is in our house, and she has visited Eva less times than fingers I have on my hands. SINCE SHE WAS BORN. My mom too. She has the choice to get up here and she'd rather be in Denver with no food, job, and a threat of losing her apt. She's seen her more than Lupe has, even living hundreds of miles away but still I just don't get it. Maybe I have too much time on my hands and am OVERLY concerned about it. Its just thoughts in my own head and things I discuss with Ricky. People are going to do what they are going to do so I have to live with it. I actually was crying to my gramma on the phone about this and she just tells me Eva is not lacking for anything. Attention or otherwise. I just cant help but feel thats not true. I hope I'm just over thinking things. For Eva.

Anyway before I got on that off subject I was saying it was nice for Eva and Rick both if I could bury the hatchet with certain people. Ricky gets out enough with some friends, but I know he and I both miss other things we used to be able to look forward to. Or something?

I tell myself nothing will ever be the same, but I can still give a chance to the way things COULD be. I just have to TRUST. Even though trust usual gets me hurt.