MY MOM AND SISTER

MY MOM AND SISTER ARE LIVING WITH ME, BUT NOW ARE MOVING TO ALOHA TO LIVE TOGETHER BUT NEAR BY. AWESOME.

MY MOM MADE IT

MY MOM GOT HERE

Wired

I fucked my diet up. Ah well time to start over. Again. -Bleh- Invited mi padre over today for some yummeroo pizza and watching of some television. Eva did not nap a single minute today so by this evening she was telling me No! Mine! and biting and slapping. Terrible twos? Wahhh.. You mean terrible One-and-a-Half's. :)
I'm watching Mary Poppins right now in bed. I'm trying to tell myself all these cartoon movies I keep watching is for Eva, but she is usually asleep and wouldn't pay attention anyhow. So I watch them. Sue Me.
Pizza wont seem to settle so maybe tonight I will be watching. More than One? Okay! Mi madre called me today and she left at 5Am and drove straight 12 hours. She barely made it to the Utah/Wyoming border. She has another 2/3 of the trip left. She stopped there and is going to call it a night. That far should have taken her 6 hours according to Map Quest. However with the weight her speed is limited and its taking her double time. Now, she must be on the road another 12 hours according to Map quest, however it could be double again and be another 24 hours? AHHHH! She needs to just get here already. Looking like she wont be here until sometime early Monday. She is most definitely going to need to rest again tomorrow night so I'm sure it will be Monday afternoon! Our second bedroom is all cleaned out and ready for her.
Last but not least, we have got ants again! I went to get sugar out of the cabinet for tea yesterday and there were gillions of them! We raided, ant trapped and cleaned the whole kitchen thoroughly but we will see if it ceases. My back is aching from sitting up to type this so Good Night Y'all!

Obama Vs. McCain

I like Obama. I Loved Hilary but eh? Shes out. I dont have MUCH an opinion on McCain, but Sarah o Sarah Palin- DISASTER. WRECK. Please dont end up VP!
I dislike her very much Sam-I-Am. I dont want her or green eggs n Ham. LOL

No seriously, I think it would be a big mistake. McCains speech wasnt bad, but it was only good because he had a tear jerker story. Nothing of which proves to me his ability to be a good president with lots of change in store.

He didn't even really clarify his or her views on much. Nothing in particular that would be helpful to us here middle class (w0)men. Wait am I middle or lower class? Ha who'm I kiddin? This here proves my udumucashon and lower class ness.

ANyhoo. Just thought I would add that I am for the democrats this year. And always. YeeHaw

Cant Sleep

Hey Yo Ho's! Heehee. Evas snoozin, ricks Smoking (blegh) and I cannot sleep. This week is going by super slowly. We've been watching the 40 Year Old Virgin and it is pretty funny I guess. More funny than I remember anyway.
My Momma should be here in less than a week... Woo Hoo. Her room is very close to being finished. Im getting a little anxious waiting to here about my possible career taking off/moving. For now Im content with being a full time stay at home mother of Eva and watching lil Eli also. He's lots better than he was a month or even two ago. Now that he's popped a couple teeth through. He still kind of whines a bit much. Anyway, Our new arrangement in our room is still totally rocking. My diet/exercise routine is also going extremely well. I just don't know if I can keep it up cost wise. We shall see. We took Eva to the park this evening when Enrrique got off work and her face was SOO excited to go with Daddy this time! I wished so much I hadn't broken my digicamera. Ah I wish I could've captured it.
I have a pretty busy day tomorrow. Sheena (nuh-nuh, as Eva puts it) is bringing me some new kinda wine. Maybe we'll go shopping. Our differing schedules has been putting us on the D.L. lately. I have some more finishing touches to do on the room/house for mi madre's arrival.
Okeee Nighty Night Ya'll!

Once a month?

Okay, So I know its been a month since I last posted. I have a very active daughter, so sue me! Eva is less than a month away from her Year-and-a-Half mark. She acts like shes closer to two-years-and-a-half. Shes already in her Terrible-Two's I'm convinced. Even as I type shes pulling at me and whining. Not ever can I seem to get a second to myself without her guilt tripping whines and hollers. Ahhhhhh. O well, its what I signed up for, even if it was in the Very FINE PRINT. :) On to more earth shattering news...
My digital camera broke at Rick's Uncle Johnny's wedding a couple weeks ago. I am now unable to snap any life altering moments. Not that I don't have thousands too many to work through as it is. Ill get a new camera soon enough.
My madre is moving in with us for a short while starting the first week of September, well I guess about a week from this Monday/Tuesday. I'm super super excited to have her here, even if she is out working, she still gets to see Eva a LOT more than being 1300 miles away. I've been working hard rearranging stuff all over this house so it feels just right and NOT-TOO-CRAMPED when she gets here. We'll see. I'm most impressed with the way my own room has turned out. The room least affected ha ha. With Rick's mom's nightstands moved in here, and a couple other extra shelving things, its come together quite well. Not to mention right now I am staring into a new-to-us 19 inch flat/wide screen LCD monitor for this computer. We had one on our list of "hope-to-buys" but with my uncle Dan being very generous, as usual, we get this and its much better than our other monitor. Anyway I guess my room finally feels like a room I can actually hang out in now, and less of a room that just held all 3 of our shit. It does, but in a better way, more at home way. Less Chaotic.
I made a FAB stew/soup two different times this week. One was super spicy for my kind of peeps. One was not spicy at all for people like my "Mexican" pussy-ass boyfriend HA HA. Both were delicious. Only the less spicy I made too much it turned out to need the most Gigantor of Pots we have stashed in this house. I put it back on the stove today as my dad was coming over and I was going to offer him some. But apparently not thinking I asked Rick to turn it on high to heat it quicker, and o well it burned a little. And now the whole thing tastes kinda burned. Still edible it just lost its pizazz. :)
Well I have a lot more stuff to tend to round here. I'm TRYING to remember to blog on here more often. Not only for y'all but because I love to. Therapeutic like a journal. But less private. :)

Some Updates

Haven't written in some time now. Eva's got a mouthful of teeth. Went to Lake Merwin and are going back up this Fri-Sun. Might start taking over at Aunt Shiela's work when she switches to bigger/newer place. Looking forward to it despite some peoples thoughts that it might not work out, I think and know I would like to have at it. Went out with the girls (from high school) again a couple weeks ago and had some beers and fun in the sun. Was a good time. Then Ricky's Birthday was the 19Th and had the good ole familia over. Surprisingly great time we had. A little too fun cause I started spinning from all the beer! Still watching Elijah three times a week only all August it will be 12+ hours each day instead of 10. Don't know how much longer I can handle it. :) Hes such a whiny baby, and shows no signs of wanting to do anything for himself! Totally opposite of Eva. And what I am not used to. Family drama of mine never seems to end. I find it funny but on some days I just don't want to hear it. Thats all for now folks! Until next time, be safe!

Old Friends

As previously stated everything has been coming back to me the last week or so. Yesterday Erin FINALLY emailed me the pics from when we got together a few months back at McMenamins.

From Left: Erin, Sheena, Me, Lisa, Rachel

I have to say we mostly look cute. I loved hanging out with them together and I miss the times we used to have. Two of them are far away at college, Erin and Lisa. Rachel goes to school full time, works, and hangs with a totally different crowd so I only see her once every few months as well. Sheena obviously I see every couple days or so.

Eli is back today and sleeping right now and Eva is too so I need to take this time to get stuff done!

Twightlight Zone

So how weird is it that just as all this old shit coming back to life is happening, AND after what I posted earlier, Candi just dropped by. Even though it was mostly from when I called her an asked her to pretty please bring our Hose back from Amanda's (where they took it without letting us know thats where it was headed), she stayed. And talked. To me about all of the shit that went down. I told her Destanie and I were talking again and she asked why we weren't talking in the first place. And that she knew what it was like to an extent for me in a lot of circumstances I have had to be in this past couple years. I explained everything to her that I should have a year ago. I told her how I truly feel about nobody seeing Eva etc. I told her everything and it was a nice talk. I feel a million times better bout a lot of stuff. Personal stuff. Stuff the internet does not need to know about lol. It SEEMS more often than not, that they stay away because they are afraid one of the kids will mention a certain person we do not need to discuss. Or just simply because they don't feel welcome. I told her, that I do not NOT like them and to stop feeling that way. Because most important is us all being together, and just like any family, people will be pissed off from time to time but it doesn't mean we want nothing to do with them again! A lot of things were misunderstood and its nice to clarify a lot, on my part anyway. Im thankful she felt the same about a lot, and that she made a point to tell me she knows how hard her mom can be to deal with. Can I hear an AMEN! lol Ok buhbYe

Time Warp

July must be the month where everything on your mind or everything bothering you comes back all at once and suddenly you have to deal with it.
I'm not having very great conversations with my mother because for the last month and a half I THOUGHT she has been seriously coming to move back. I thought this was different then the million other half hearted mentions of coming back to live in Oregon for a year now. Apparently from what my Aunt Shiela and Jamie an Gramma have been saying, my moms heart is REALLY not into coming and she just is putting it off and/or putting off telling me. My mom also emailed me saying she might not be here as soon as was expected bla bla bla. If at all...
I'm fine with "my mom is going to do what she wants in the long run" and all that. What I am not fine with is the beating around the bush. The back an forth. The hope then let down. I just wish she would make up her own mind, and stick to it. Live in Oregon or don't. Her decision but she has to actually make it. I guess i just don't understand why she would even mention she is coming unless she were sure. Why bother letting me down!?
Destanie and I have emailed each other a few times and seem to be on the same page about where we are at. Friends? Probably. Enemies? No. Best Friends, not really anymore. Could we be again, don't know, anything is possible. Would I like to see where things got on their own? It would be nice. Have I forgotten everything good and bad? Definitely not. My biggest issue as I did explain to her is TRUST. I'm not saint. Not by a long one. But, and this isn't necessarily all on her, there was FAR FAR too much shit talking, misunderstanding, and just plain attacking of opinions by the lot of Ricky's family and I am afraid honestly that one wrong word or action will start it all over again. There are things everyone doesn't like or agree with about EVERYONE, but I think there are more tactful ways to deal with it than high school gossip and threats and downright bullying.
As nice as it would be to have fun around those I used to have fun with, I am giving this a chance for Eva and Rick too. Eva doesn't get a lot of interaction with not only kids her age but with ANY FAMILY. Candi and Shelly would rather have their kids around Amanda's kids everyday than stop by and see Eva, even maybe once a month. Which doesn't happen even that routinly. My own mom, Ricks own mom, neither of our sisters, seem to really care about making an effort to be in Eva's life and its wearing on my heart HEAVILY. Rick says well we don't make an effort to see Mirella and Gio and Anahi and Jose etc... So why can we blame them..? I don't know. I just think it is different. They drive to each other's houses and out to Amanda's and they all hang out and thats fine, but its not like I can pack up Eva in the car that Rick has at work, and I'm definitely not meeting them over at Amanda's house so what exactly do I have the ability to do? Shelly lives in Clackamas. She comes all the way out to Cornelius ALL THE TIME and never stops by. WE ARE NEVER IN CLACKAMAS. Same with Lupe. She is in Cornelius ALL THE TIME. or nearby in Hillsboro. Her shit is in our house, and she has visited Eva less times than fingers I have on my hands. SINCE SHE WAS BORN. My mom too. She has the choice to get up here and she'd rather be in Denver with no food, job, and a threat of losing her apt. She's seen her more than Lupe has, even living hundreds of miles away but still I just don't get it. Maybe I have too much time on my hands and am OVERLY concerned about it. Its just thoughts in my own head and things I discuss with Ricky. People are going to do what they are going to do so I have to live with it. I actually was crying to my gramma on the phone about this and she just tells me Eva is not lacking for anything. Attention or otherwise. I just cant help but feel thats not true. I hope I'm just over thinking things. For Eva.

Anyway before I got on that off subject I was saying it was nice for Eva and Rick both if I could bury the hatchet with certain people. Ricky gets out enough with some friends, but I know he and I both miss other things we used to be able to look forward to. Or something?

I tell myself nothing will ever be the same, but I can still give a chance to the way things COULD be. I just have to TRUST. Even though trust usual gets me hurt.

My sister is awesome

Elijah, the 6monthold I watch, is teething. Or something?-Also my sister just now asked me to add "My sister is so fucking awesome!"-OK!
Anyway back to Elijah, on Monday he was hell to watch. Tuesday he was alright I suppose and today, I only have him part of today this afternoon and hes sleeping. So wooopeee!

Eva is fine after smashing her fingers. Turned out to be only skin torn off her finger but her nails now look to be dead and falling off. Disgusting and I hate having to touch them to clean them but thats life! And I am her mommy SO i better get used to it huh!

Its hot. 90 something like all this week. We are so smart that we have a BRAND NEW AIR CONDITIONER IN OUR STORAGE AND NOT COOLING THIS HOME!!! Like smarties of the year or something?

OK I better get off of here... Oh ya one more thing...
My former Best Friend Destanie visited Eva the other day. Ya know her cousin. Well, I showed her a photo album and she wrote me an email today asking why I would do such a thing to her as show her old photos with an old boyfriend. I didn't even notice but apparently everything I try to do nice for rick's family gets translated into Bitchery! Im such a Whore, Boo! In the end we cleared it up but this is just another item in my box of things I do that they think I did for other reasons lol if that makes sense. OK BuhBYE

Independence Day

Whats that? Oh Yeh, my baby had her fingers smashed Friday. On the 4th of July, her second yet, we will forever remember Eva dramatically having two of her left hand fingers smashed. In a door. By her father. OH YAH.. MY poor baby. She will be ok, but Damn we all know how much it hurts, especially if it is a new feeling! Rick accidentally shut our bedroom door and presto, the screams came. I didn't know if we should go to the hospital so we called my mother (So much for Independence), and she said it really shouldn't be necessary so we didn't. We gave her Tylenol and she took a nap. Upon awakening she was just fine. Were keeping it clean and WHO knows if her nail will fall off or ever be the same again. Only time will tell I suppose. Poor baby may never have beautiful hands again. :(

Last night Sheena came over and we took eva out for ice cream and then we went around outside watching fireworks.
It was great to get Eva to experience fireworks two nights in a row. Plus we went to the fireworks spectacular in June at the Rose Festival. So she has definetly had her fill of them!

Ricky and I didn't have much money this weekend so we bought Eva some sparklers and some small little fireworks. Luckily when we went out into the couldesac we were able to enjoy lots of fireworks. Some even were Illegal I think but it turned out to be a better low key night than I expected.

Eva loved the fireworks. She got kinda tired cause they dragged on but all in all she was WAY better than I thought she would be. She got mad at me when I covered her ears on some of the louder fireworks. Here are some pics of our Independence Day Celebration:

Privacy

My email has been hacked into for the second time. I don't know who it is really, although I have a great idea. Its just annoying when you can not trust anyone. Nothing surprises me anymore however. I've changed all my passwords again and this time changed my "forgot my password" questions so *hopefully* I don't have to actually switch email accounts. Ah Well.

Sheena was by yesterday and we were discussing Ghosts and their probable existence in our world. To me this is a scary thought. I've never been harmed or had any real interaction that I can remember, but Ricky and I have been watching Ghost Hunters recently and it has us both spooked. That shit looks so real I just can't deny it anymore! :) I don't like this fact, it just is. Needless to say, Ricky and I have been sleeping together every night despite being squished with Eva between us! LOL.

My Aunt Shiela has had two small strokes recently due to blood pressure and that's quite frightening to all of us in the family. She is also being monitored because she has a brain aneurysm. I'm hopeful she will be just fine. My sister moved back to Las Vegas and is living with Shiela's son Jimmy. I suppose she must be working for him also, because I hear he's very pleased with her there. That's great to hear.

Received an email from Jessica, Eli's mom, and she said she is very glad I am watching Eli. I was so happy to hear that news as I didn't get much vibe of either way. They are very nice and I am also very glad to be working for them!

New Beginnings Old Endings

Catchy title Eh? Ok, well I have a lot going on in my life. Too much to try to explain in one of Eva's nap times that's for sure. My daughter Eva has been 15 months old for just about a week now, and she i SWEAR acts and lives like shes 2 or 3. She talks and sings and dances all day long. She climbs on anything and everything. Runs into everything too! :) Rick and I couldn't be happier, except for with some of his family, but we'll just try to keep that out of this blog for now. We have been discussing one day we plan to have another little one but not right now. Possibly in a year or two. I do have a lil boy Eli whom I now watch during the days about 3 days a week. He is just the cutest and a very good boy!
My mother is coming soon to live with us temporarily to start her life back in Oregon where she should have stayed the past 8 years!
This blog really is for me to get some stuff out in the open off my brain, but enjoy if your someone reading my thoughts out there!